Having a newborn leaves you constantly on your toes.  You can never really leave your guard down, or take any amount of “me” time, because at any moment, they may need you for one thing or another.  And life certainly changes.  A lot.  By 9 pm, your entire body is just drained of anything that was once there in the morning.  Nights don’t even provide relief.  As a nursing mom, I’m up a couple times for about 45 minutes.  And that’s if Sawyer eats and then goes right back to sleep, which doesn’t happen all the time.  So, at times, it’s an hour and a half before sleep can briefly consume me once again.  James and I were talking today about how we’ve been dreaming so much more lately.  I think we’re so exhausted that we hit the pillow and enter deep sleep with dreaming way faster than we used to.  We have yet to put Sawyer down at night in anything but the swing.  We have a nice bassinet next to our bed.  But we also have this incredible swing that plugs in and never needs batteries–so we’re using the heck out of it.  It’s been worth it’s weight in gold (though it really wasn’t that much because we got it on Craigslist used, and my mom bought it for us as part of our gift for Sawyer).  Soon, we’ll transition to the bassinet.  For some strange reason, I have this notion that he won’t sleep very well in it, because it’s not in motion.  But perhaps that’s all in my head.  Let’s hope that’s the case.

It’s so interested how the day is just one big continuous cycle.  Baby cries.  Feed the baby.  Change the baby.  Have some awake time with the baby.  See the baby is getting sleepy and try to put the baby to sleep after swaddling.  Regroup, relax briefly, do some cleanup, tend to other children.  Baby cries.  Repeat.  And repeat.  And repeat.  At least we always know what’s coming next.  Unless there’s a surprise up Sawyer’s sleeve.

This afternoon is Sawyer’s two week checkup.  Let’s hope he’s approaching his birth weight.  I know he’s not at it for sure, but I certainly hope he’s close enough so the doctor isn’t overly concerned.  Because overly concerned doctors stress me out.