Perhaps I lost count somewhere, and I think I’m a day off, but today I just took my 349th daily picture of the year. . . well, I guess it wasn’t actually the 349th that I’ve taken since I’ve missed a few.  But you get the point.  That’s a lot of days.  And you know?  I can’t believe how fast they flew by.  Time goes so amazingly fast, yet so slow sometimes that it’s one big mystery how that all seems to work.

It feels like I will be in the phase forever. . . of chasing after a little toddler cleaning up his constant disasters.  And changing diapers.  And taking sick little kids to the doctors.  And trying to remember everything that each child is supposed to bring to school on which day.  And emptying backpacks and hanging up coats and putting away shoes and picking up three days of clothes off the floor.  But I know I won’t be here forever.  And am I really trying to wish it away?  Once you wish something away, your wishes come true before you know it and then you always finding yourself yearning to go back.  Case in point. . . my college years.  We don’t have to discuss in great detail how I probably wished those days away and couldn’t wait to be married and couldn’t wait to be an adult.  But I know for certain that those days were gone before I knew it, and here I am wishing to just go back for a short brief time to revel in all the goodness that twenty was.

And here I am at thirty (and a little bit) and I just know that when forty comes a knockin’ at my door, I will be looking back at these days and wishing that I could just go back for a short brief time to revel in all the goodness that thirty was.  And so it goes.  Always wishing forward but yearning backward. Why is that our nature? We must always feel like the grass must be greener on the other side of this phase.  That surely, life will become easier.  Will become more grand.  Will become something which it surely isn’t in this present moment.

But we’re wrong.  So let’s remember not to wish away today.  And then in ten years, we can look back and say that we are proud that we made the most of it.